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The Tuesday Morning Hamster Trauma: Why Do Hamsters Eat Their Babies

It was 7:14 AM on a Tuesday, and I was standing in the sunroom wearing one slipper, an oversized t-shirt with a questionable yogurt stain on the shoulder, and holding my second cup of coffee because my four-year-old, Leo, had...

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Why We Looked For Angel Baby Lyrics After Our World Stopped

I’m sitting in our Subaru outside the Fred Meyer on West Burnside, and the wipers are on the lowest setting, squeaking against the windshield every four seconds. My wife is staring blankly at the dashboard clock. In my hand, I've...

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The Alex Vesia Baby Update Broke My Brain: A Note To Past Me

It's 2:14 AM here in Portland, the rain is aggressively battering the nursery window, and I'm sitting on the floor staring at a terrifyingly small pile of clothes. Dear Marcus from six months ago: I'm writing you this system log...

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Minka Kelly's Memoir and the Parenting Bugs We Can't Fix

Don't, under any circumstances, ask your postpartum wife if she's crying because the Wi-Fi dropped while she's reading in the dark. I learned this at exactly 3:14 AM last Tuesday. The eerie blue glow of her Kindle was illuminating the...

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Sorting through the quiet hospital aftermath of a stillborn baby

My mother-in-law told my friend to pack up the entire nursery before she even got home from the hospital so she wouldn't have to look at the empty crib. A hospital bereavement counselor suggested keeping the door wide open to...

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A letter to myself about surviving the loss of our baby angel

You're sitting on the bathroom floor holding a plastic wand with two pink lines, completely oblivious to the fact that in exactly twenty-two weeks, you'll be sitting on this exact same tile holding a cardboard memory box from the hospital....

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