What the rainbow baby definition actually means in real life
It was a Tuesday in late October, raining that gross sideways rain we get in Seattle, and I was sitting in the driver's seat of my Honda CR-V in the Walgreens parking lot. I was wearing these awful maternity leggings...
Why We Looked For Angel Baby Lyrics After Our World Stopped
Iβm sitting in our Subaru outside the Fred Meyer on West Burnside, and the wipers are on the lowest setting, squeaking against the windshield every four seconds. My wife is staring blankly at the dashboard clock. In my hand, I've...
What I Learned After Googling an Anencephaly Baby Diagnosis
It was 2:14 AM on a random Tuesday, roughly week fourteen of my wife's pregnancy, and I was doing the exact thing every medical professional explicitly tells you not to do. I was sitting in the blue glow of my...
Did Derek Hough Lose a Baby? The Truth About Pregnancy Loss
When we were going through our own jagged little version of hell before the twins arrived, my mum's neighbour leaned over the garden fence to tell me that "the universe only gives you what you can handle." The very next...
Processing the Baby Storme News While Riding Out a Real Storm
It was 2:14 AM on a Tuesday, and I was wedged between a vacuum cleaner and a giant cardboard box of winter coats in our windowless hallway closet, trying to keep a four-year-old, a two-year-old, and a four-month-old quiet while...
Sorting through the quiet hospital aftermath of a stillborn baby
My mother-in-law told my friend to pack up the entire nursery before she even got home from the hospital so she wouldn't have to look at the empty crib. A hospital bereavement counselor suggested keeping the door wide open to...
A letter to myself about surviving the loss of our baby angel
You're sitting on the bathroom floor holding a plastic wand with two pink lines, completely oblivious to the fact that in exactly twenty-two weeks, you'll be sitting on this exact same tile holding a cardboard memory box from the hospital....
The Kentucky Cheerleader Case: Hidden Pregnancy and Safe Sleep
The biggest myth parents believe is that concealed pregnancies only happen in made-for-tv movies or to families who never speak to each other. We sit around in our comfortable living rooms and tell ourselves we'd instantly know if our own...
Why the Kayla Vesia Baby News Broke My Brain as a New Dad
It was 3:17 AM. My 11-month-old was finally asleep, doing that weird starfish pose that aggressively takes up eighty percent of the crib real estate. The room smelled faintly of diaper cream and exhausted desperation. I was sitting on the...